There’s never enough sleeping pills.
This is the second time now I’ve had a dream where I’m masturbating. How is it even my sexy dreams are boring?!
Shit. Fuck. Cock. Balls.
I’m not great at change. But you wouldn’t know that with the year I’ve had. All since November I’ve gotten engaged. Gotten a new car. Moved in a new home, that my fiance owns. Gotten a tiny puppy. and drum roll please…tomorrow I start my new job in a completely different field than I’ve been working in the last 4+ years. Change is good, or so they say. But...
I have the normal litany of New Years resolutions. Eat better, lose weight, drink less, you know the ones. But really all I resolve to do this year, really, is to let go of regrets and anxieties and be happy with my beautiful, blessed life. Let do this thing.
testing 1, 2, 69
I’m going to start smiling more. For a week. Just test it out to see what happens. Smile when i’m annoyed, at strangers, when I want to scream..I’m just going to smile.
pinkwreck asked: Hey, was it you house we stayed at in Portland?!?
I wish I still had my California license plate so people would expect me to...– Nicky T
This is not my beautiful life?
I miss waking up with friends, or the occasional good-looking stranger. Spending the morning trying to piece together the previous night. Getting Burritos. Giggling. Shit, I miss just having friends.
One of the downfalls about my new housing arrangement is that you can look from the street directly into my bathroom. This completely rules out peeing with the door opening. Let alone any other bathroom shenanigans I want to get into. Examples include but are not limited to face masks, strange creams to remove facial hair, doing my make up in the nude. I work to hard not to be able to pee with...
" Look them in the eye, they love that "
Yesterday I took an Intro to Burlesque class with a friend. Overall an empowering, body positive experience. The group was comprised of ladies all ages, shapes and sizes. To get started we went around and said a few words about why we picked this class. The last lady said she wanted to feel less silly in the bedroom. As someone who has always wanted to own lingerie but has never had the balls,...
cultofmelancholia asked: Hey! I'll be in Portland on July 10th playing a show at Plan B. I have no idea where that is in relation to where you live. Also be playing Eugene and Salem but hopefully our paths will cross soon! Miss you and hope all is well on your end of the mental health treatment world both professional and personal. - Andy
the lil' things.
Today I was walking around the house holding an otter-pop to my face. Andrew takes one look at me and says ” Baby did you burn your mustache off again? ” . And thus, the evolution of love.
Story for Moms Birthday
Troll Hair Buns have come back in style…why? Always one to adhere to new tends I thought – what the hell I’ll give it a go. I got of the shower, hair wet, and combed it all out. I stared to put it up. Bumps.Everywhere. So I got a smaller comb and started this agonizing process again to little avail. My arms started to hurt, ach even. I could just not get it up. It was then I remembered sitting...
fuckyeahtignotaro: Welp, here’s Tig Notaro’s segment on This American Life - Live. (Not the best quality) Captured w/ my smartphone. It’s up to you if you click play or not. :)
I'd absolutely kill to get in the ocean.
I’m cold. I’ve been cold for months now. Andrew and I went to Disneyland earlier this year.I can vividly remember waiting for space moutain. My legs and back were killing me and as we encroached on an hour and a half waiting I remeber cursing myself for insisting we come. As soon as I sat in that space ship and started zipping around, all was forgiven. I would’ve waited all...
Today I said something snotty to a employee. Which is unlike me! I pride myself on being polite. This was after I was in traffic for an hour and a half trying to get to my sewing class on time. This was also after a shitty day of work. Which was also after a series of shitty days (months) at work. I feel really burnt out. I want to get home and do things to help me feel better but...
Thursday we get the keys to our new place. I am nervous because it’s our place. The days of my place are behind me. I am also nervous because it’s in a new neighborhood. A new and exciting neighborhood. Not the beautiful neighborhood I have inhabited for some time now. Currently I walk out of my front door and spill out into a bustling street. Most all of my hearts desires can be...
Reflecting on my New Years resolutions from last year I can’t say I met them with a ton of sucess. But I had a wonderful year so…C’est la vie This year I’m not feeling incrediably motivated so I’ll keep it brief. 1. Be a good girlfriend. As the big G-O-D says, love is patient and I want to be that for Andrew. Patience has never been one of my strengths but he is...
"home" for the Holidays
Every night before bed my Dad goes outside to look up at the stars. He says that he prays for his family and any other daily concerns to give to God. He also shared that he just likes to take it in, and remember his place in all of it. I’m feel blessed to have been able to join him tonight in that.